life

So I have been thinking of life!

hat the hell am I doing with my life? Is the answer, I ask myself this because of a few reasons. When I was back home in BC I wanted to stay there so much, then I got back to Ontario and I do not want to go live there, I don't even know if I want to live in Calgary, yes it would be nice to see my mom all the time and friends but friends change you know. I had a great time visiting would it be the same way if I moved there?

Well yesterday was a day of well it was interesting... I am a good girl and never do anything wrong but for some reason police officers scare me. Well I went and got a friend from BC and all her stuff from her Ex BF's house, we were escorted by Police into the house and was I scared shitless yes, why the hell do we have to have cops is he going to beat the shit out of us? Well many of these questions went through my head and I sat and thought why am I doing this, do I want to look like the good guy but no its not that, I did this because I felt it needed to be done, to get this girl and her baby back to BC where she belongs. So the baby is almost a year old and none of her family has seen him, well let me tell you he is the cutest little guy, Evan enjoyed having him sleep over we took him for a walk to make him fall asleep so his mom could pack all the stuff.

Thinking of last night it makes me happy to know I am living in London not only did I help her out I helped her mother and family out knowing she was in good hands once I got her. I was trying to think what is going on in her mothers head her 20 year old daughter and grandson are living in a women's shelter and she is 40 hours away or 7 hours by driving and flying. Its rough...

The more I think of it I like London, I wish Evan could get a job so I wouldn't have to work full time, but thats taking the easy way out and I don't wanna do that. So for now I am going to love working and live the life we can with the money or not so much of it we have.

I was also thinking about my small group here and well I think I need to take a stand in it and be more happy get involved more take the lead.